Friends...

Recently I have been struggling. It has been an issue for a long time with me, but only recently have I managd to find the guts to start to deal with it. To explain it though, I need to give a long detailed description of my life...but since you are reading it, I suppose I can try to shorten it up, and adress only the issue of my friends.
Lifelong friends - Christiana, Andrew...and kinda Jacky, I met her when I was two, and we lost contact a couple times, but are great friends now.
Riverview friends - well there are different categories in this... elementary school was well everyone, and middle school was mostly Tara and Sarah...if you ever want to hear my middle school stories, I am now okay with telling them by the way...if you are willing to talk for a while.
Quispamsis friends - This also needs to be broken up into categories...when I first moved here it would be Melissa, Sara, Natasha and Caitlin...that changed after a while though because of well difficulties..I started hanging out more with Darshana, Angela, Sarah-ish people...I cannot really name you all, that transition time there were lots of people...this year it has changed even more...I hang out mostly with Darshana, Sarah, Alisha and Kerri, and Angela in my mind cuz I wish she was here!!! I also hang out with like Nicole, Etta, Anne and them. Stephanie, Brier, Sarah White, Emily, Tor, Alisha and those type of people I also hang out with. Than we have Becka and Kelsi, whom I seem to be hanging out with more. I have started hanging out with Nick, Mac, Tim, Laura and them too, and I really enjoy it. This list could also keep going, if I didn't mention you, it is just cuz I told people I would keep it short...
I have a problem though...I know here are when the jokes will start....but I am bad at hanging around with the same people to much...there are exceptions. Like usually when I am around people when it is just the two of us..I am good.
Now, before I get to far ahead of myself...you have to understand...I love all my friends, I just feel clausterphobic almost some of the time, I need my space...and so on some days I like to eat lunch with different people...some nights I like to hang out with different people. But I also feel bad because I am not hanging out with other people...anyways, the purpose of this blog is to apologize...I know I am not always the best friend, but I need your guys' help...I need you to tell me when I screwed up (in a nice way please). One of my friends was going through a divorce at one point in time and was really frustrated with me and she told me I didn't know how to listen. It wasn't that though, it was because I was uncomfortable talking about her pain, and I swore never to be like that again, and so if I am please tell me. Also though, try to bear with me I love you all!!!!!P.S. - sometime I will figure out how to put pictures of you all on this!!!
-Amy